So, today is, obviously, a magical day. 11/11/11. Unfortunately on this most fantasmogorical of days, I am still in bed. Bed is where I have been for close to a month, recovering from what is essentially THE PLAGUE. I am now suffering from post-black death fatigue, but starting to regain my energy bit by bit, and my mental capacities along with it, hence why I finally feel capable of writing an entry today.
'The plan' for today had been to do 11 fun things (stolen shamelessly from another friend who had done the same thing on 10/10/10 last year). However, having missed so much university at this point, the priority has to be getting myself well enough to work again, so instead I embark upon day 23 in bed, most of which consists of watching the West Wing, writing a novel (see no. 94) and enjoying the fact that I am now well enough to stomach eating something other than uncooked noodles.
However, I did manage to have my glimmer of fun today. I got an internet clock up on my computer screen that would show me the time to the very second, and at 11:11:11 on 11/11/11, I made a wish. Now, I know that all of my millions of dear readers are quite desperate to find out what my wish was, but, of course, it will not come true if I tell anyone, let alone post it on the internet, Sorry, folks, you're just gonna have to make something up. Total let down, I know. If anyone is reading this out there, post a comment below and make up what you think my wish was. The wildest and weirdest gets a prize... or somethin'.
Anyway, this post is also about my number 31. My number 31, to do something fun each week, may sound silly. However, the reason I wrote it down was because I realised that I am rarely intentional about doing things that I want to do. There are so many obligations, so many 'shoulds' (that never seem to get done anyway) that sometimes I know I have missed out on enjoying my life. I don't resent my obligations most of the time. They make you a responsible person when you do them, and that is never a bad thing. However, I don't want to look back on my life and realise that there was a period of time where I didn't really enjoy anything.
I took a rather stark look at myself a couple of months ago and became aware that my default setting for going out and doing stuff was 'no'. I then figured out that there was no reason that this was the case, and so I secretly experimented with myself, and vowed that I would say 'yes' to ANYTHING I was invited to as long as it didn't clash with any other invitations, and do you know what? I was markedly happier. I was a little more tired, but I was just enjoying my life more than I have in years.
Having gone from that to being in bed for so long, I am now fully invested in fun. Being isolated for this long certainly makes you appreciate being out and about and healthy more, I can tell you! I am invested in being intentionally active in enjoyment of life, which is the reason I feel I can cross it off the list. There are many others in progress, but they will be ticked off once I know I have created a habit. Fun is now something I recognise as a very basic and simple way to be more joyful day to day, and I have no intention of going back. Embrace the good times people, and I will hopefully be posting some more entries with my adventures soon. I know it's been a long time, but progress is being made, slowly but surely.
Until next time, kids!
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